What I am 'do-ulaing' right now

The past month saw me experience possibly one of my most challenging births and it was a great reminder of just how unpredictable birth can be and how amazing it is that we have a medical system that can step in when the unexpected happens. After a long and challenging induction, my client gave birth to a baby who was very unwell and needed support in the NICU. The whole experience for them was beyond comprehension but they were able to face it all with a determination, resilience and a focus that meant they could be there for their baby despite having no preparations for what they would face. Supporting this family was a huge emotional challenge as I witnessed them suffer from failings by the healthcare team meant to be supporting them, coercion and then needing to rely on the same system to keep their newborn baby safe. Staying connected to my clients through this and even when I was not with them physically was very much part of the challenge but very much part of why I do what I do. To be with them energetically and offering them space to process as they sat by their baby's bedside, was a huge privilege and one I take very seriously. They have reminded me just how strong we are and just how strong our instincts are when it comes to protecting our babies. Our bodies do hold the score and they know when we need something for our births. I am so happy to say that this family is now home and managing the transition of becoming new parents in the comfort, support and familiarity of their family after weeks in hospital. I am looking forward to seeing them again in their postpartum and continuing to support them as they grow. 

After a very fortunately timed holiday in Portugal, I am now back on call fully rested and with my cup restored.

I am not just a doula...